The next person in my company who thinks I have ANYTHING to do with how our office's phone system works is gonna get their ass kicked!!!
Damn location shoots.
Hollywood's been blocked off all week for filming. The resulting traffic has been adding another 20 minutes to my drive time so where I used to go home and take a nap before class, I'm now going home, changing and running off to class almost immediately.
Of course it's not helping that with the addition of this new group, we're not getting out until at LEAST 10:30... if we get out on time at all because people don't bother to stop for 2 minutes and CLEAN UP THEIR SHIT. And yes, I realize that there's slackers among my class as well, but slackers in a group of 8 is a LOT easier to deal with than slackers in a group of 20 and there's already attitude coming from the newbies, so that doesn't help. They're having to get used to personalities 8 people have spent 5 months working with and while I'll admit that it sucks and both sides are pretty much screwed, people have just gotta learn to deal and move on....
Of course, that means that I'll be dwelling on the subject for a while... when I'm NOT in class.
To even further complicate things, Aunt Flo made her presence known yesterday afternoon to add to my theory that Thursdays, are by definition, shitty.
Yes, yes, I'm writing more shit and not posting it right now... I'm in one of those funks that way. But we knew that from my previous (and as yet, not posted entry). Yet another sign of impending burn out... or maybe it's just summeritis, combined with the heat is a lack of responsibility phase.
I go through these every once in a while... periods where I just don't want to take care of things. Where I'd be more than happy for someone to take care of all the little things of my life... with no strings attached, of course. Like THAT's going to happen.
However, I'm starting to discover that I'm a bit of a control freak. I like knowing what's going on around me. I prefer to know that something has been done and done right. And I have a problem letting go of the reigns on a project or a position unless I'm fully confident that the person taking over is completely capable of doing the work.
But it's not that I don't mind working in the midst of chaos. As long as I know what I'm doing. Hmm... As usual, I'm not explaining this very well... I'll have to get back to this later.
I'm so fucking sick of people who can't do things right. I've spent the last hour trying to fight the urge to rip someone's head off after receiving an unexpected supervisor escalation from one of our more inept reps. This is someone who's been REPEATEDLY reminded about following procedures. I mean she's a sweet girl and all but I swear she's a fucking idiot. Why she hasn't been fired yet is apparently due to lack of documentation. I just hope I'm calmed down enough to deal with this civilly when she gets back from lunch in a few minutes (I've been given the authority to do this by HER boss).
On top of all that, I can feel myself getting sick. I SO don't need this right now. 11 more months and my body can get sick as much as it wants.... well, within reason.
This day is getting WAY too fucking weird.
First that fucking weird ass dream.... that I'm STILL trying to forget.
I over sleep.
I'm PMSing.
I've had caffine.
I've had to reexplain 3 times, a simple billing problem which should have been resolved 3 FUCKING WEEKS AGO!!!
I take a supervisor escalation and I get to talk this asshole who's convinced that our technicians can decode a corrupted file he received from us because he thinks we have some magical ability to make our software decode a file that cannot be opened on 7 different fucking computers.
Mr. Asshole completely pisses me off and I end up COMPLETELY wigging out in front of the entire department. (This is so unlike me it's not even funny. If I were sane right now, I'd be scaring myself). It gets so bad that Sejik has to take me into one of the conference rooms to calm me down.
I've been sitting here for the last hour with Don't Fear the Reaper on continuous repeat (just so I can maintain a minute level of calm.
And to top off the days events, I get faxed a death certificate for some person in North Carolina that I don't even know!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON TODAY?!?!
Calm... breathe... two more hours to go.... I can't wait for this day to be over... And it's only Tuesday for FUCK'S SAKE!!!
Okay! So I guess we all know now why my head's been killing me for the past week! Was I in shock? Yes. Am I surprised? No, actually, for some reason, I knew what was happening when I woke up yesterday. Must of been all that brooding I did Sunday.
Aside from that, I've had friends dreaming about bombs, earthquakes and WWIII for the last two weeks. This is scary shit! And it's not over, as far as I can tell... Gods! There's so much I want to say about this, but I really can't find the words right now.
I know that several of my online friends have closed down their sites for the next day or so, out of respect... To them I say, do it! It is good that out of respect for the horrors of yesterday and all who are dead or dying right now that you do that. I, on the other hand, am not one to go quietly into the darkness... not when I spend so much time there. Versemix.NET will stay open. And though I may not have the words for what has happened, my thoughts are with those who are suffering right now.
As for those who brought all of this about, the Universe is watching you, you sick fucks! You WILL get yours...